One of the things I've been meaning to write about being fat bodied and queer, and wanting to present as androgynously (is that even a word?) as I can, is the availability of clothes for the more female bodied among us. I used to long for the kind of figure that could fit into mens, even boys clothes, but that was never ever going to happen for me. Maybe as a result of that I ended up at the other end of the spectrum, really, super femme! I kinda loved showing off in ridiculous massive circle skirts and clashing colours and prints. After a while though, something changed. I'm not saying that wasn't 'me' because it was, completely, absolutely me. I just changed. I did a lot of thinking and a lot of self-discovery happened. I went through a period of confusion because, well, you're supposed to have all that shit sorted out by your late 20s, right? I started to feel uncomfortable in my overtly femme wardrobe, and started to tone it down. I bought my first pair of trousers for years! Its kinda unbelievable now that I didn't even own any trousers. I've found it difficult to find the kind of clothes I want to wear that fit me properly, and that also fit my budget. Mostly I've tried to find simple womens clothes and stretchy mens clothes, which works for casual but I'm struggling with slightly more formal wear. I'd love to get a suit properly fitted or even just find a perfectly fitting blazer.
And with that (and me saying 2 days ago that there wouldn't be any OOTD's) here's what I wore yesterday!
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Shirt: ASOS Curve
Jeans: H&M+
Boots: Army Surplus
Necklace: key from a junk shop on an old chain |
Now I'm about to see in the new year with my girlfriend, lots of red wine and a tonne of cheese. See you next year!
give me all your circle skirts and girly gear! lol seriously though it really is a problem finding clothes to fit fat bodies that are tailored for the fat body. you rock what you wear and i love the denim shirt and boots. have an awesome new year! x
ReplyDeleteLove the denim shirt. It is hell trying to find a well fitted blazer for a fat body, I guess the only way to go would be an actual tailor.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was a teenager all I wanted to be was adrogynous. I wanted that body type where people wondered if I was a boy or girl, I thought because I was fat I couldn't be androgynous. I am super glad you're going to be writing about this. Also, its interesting to hear about different people's style journeys. Personally I went from masculine (heavy on the internalised misogyny that I've happily given the heave-ho) to hyper femme and now a mix of the two, but probably still feminine leaning.
that shirt REALLY suits you.
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